In My Island, pencils and digital mediums
Hello darlings, how are you today? It's been a long one for me and I'm just exhausted. Sorry for not picking a more cheery note to start this post, but I guess I'm really writing to myself this time. If that makes sense at all.
Do you ever feel like days go by like a blink of an eye? As if you've just gotten used to sunrise when suddenly the sun already sets outside? Daylight, nightfall. Daylight, and nightfall again. My brain is telling me to pick up the pace while my body is growing sluggish every minute. And my heart? Well, it won't answer when I asked. Probably still trying to figure out what's all the commotion my brain is shouting out. Am I sounding more pathetic now?
Well, I was thinking about this and I realize that I'm probably in some kind of mental shock. Not just from taking care of the baby and getting used to the new chaos I have to face each day, but especially from losing a heap amount of time for myself. Mind you, "my time" is the only thing that keep me sane through everything. I sure wish there was a secret switch somewhere in the closet that I can push so I could travel from home to another place and back again in a flash. Yah. Wouldn't that be swell?
Of course, I hope you understand that this is just a little whisper to myself, so I could make a mental note that after this I will have to take a deep breath and start again with a smile on my face. So go and have a wonderful day out today. Meanwhile, I think I'll go look for that special switch in the closet. :)
Hugs and more hugs,
Amalia, oxx
This is a beautiful piece of artwork and I know how it is with a small baby! Don't try to do it all, you have the rest of your life to do that. Wishing you much peace and rest. :)
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Aaaaaawww! Motherhood is overwhelming, no matter how many times you go through it. It is a huge undertaking to be responsible for someone's life, no matter how tiny a bundle they arrive. It is difficult for modern women, I think. There are so much more demands and more stress. I also think we expect a lot from ourselves and therefore demand more. In the old times, mothers were just responsible for their children and their husbands, maybe the farm and the household but today, women are expected to care for themselves, to meet their own personal needs. I think that in itself is a source of stress. I sometimes would like to be able to go back and just say to my husband, "Hey, I just want to stay at home and clean house; instead I have to go to work and face the demands. Yet I love what I do. I think I am a better person because of the many things I do but once in a while, I just want to have a less demanding life and stay at home and clean, cook and take care of my family. Just do the best you can, Amalia and enjoy your new baby. I know it's hard to think of this now, but they do grow up and fast. I know, I have a young man and a teenager. Where did all the years go?... Take care, sweet. Tsup! Tsup!!!
ReplyDeleteP.S. It's alright to step away sometimes and say, I'm tired. I am going to sleep with the baby and you take care of the older ones :)
ah, yes a special switch would be a grand thing! wishing you time to yourself that feels good to you.
ReplyDeletelovely and poignant piece.
Wow, this illustration is so beautifully done!! :)
ReplyDeleteOh, Amalia. :(
ReplyDeleteThere is so much I wish to say. Being the mother of a newborn sure is not easy. Being the mother of a newborn with two other young ones who still need you is even harder. You have a lot of demands put upon you, not only from others but from yourself as well, what with all the physical changes and need for sleep. I think one of the hardest adjustments to make, though, is losing yourself. Your time, your interests, your peace and quiet and solitude -- mere memories. Ces is right. You need to be sure that you replenish yourself. That's the only way you will have the energy to take care of others as the loving mother you are. I so wish I could take your kids out to a park for you, just to give you a little Me Time. When things are especially tough, look at your older ones and know that the day will come when everyone is a little more independent and there is more time to relax and play. It will come.
As for your beautiful drawing, I am dreaming that -- unbeknownst to her -- she is really standing on the belly of a genie who will gently rise and grant her three magic wishes.
Hugs and love to you. xoxoxox
your art is just so sweet and beautiful...your island is one of flourishing & blossom (even amidst fatigue..oh how i do remember those years well!).
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Oh, a magic switch, yes, that would be so wonderful wouldn't it? I wish for you many quiet moments of me time, in the midst of your daily demands. It won't be long before you are little by little gaining a few more of those moments. ((((Hugs))))
ReplyDeleteHow beautiful! Her eyes are so haunting...
ReplyDeleteSuch a beautiful piece of art, Amalia. I can understand how you feel - but in a different sense. Just try to take some time for yourself - even if just for a moment or two. Find something to make you smile...it will lift your spirits.
ReplyDeleteHeya Amalia, well this one slipped under my radar - or maybe my radar neeeeeds a new battery.
ReplyDeleteI like this one.
It's backj to the old Amalia, it's honest and succinct and makes us think. It describes, not just an emotion but a general feeling so well,
I love your visual metaphors. Subliminal or not so much.
I hope you are feeling better, and I must apologise for being so late.
Just remember, the children will be all grown up soon (look at me - just yesterday I was three and now I am seventy six) so have fun will the straw grows --- err, you know what I mean.
see you soon :)
ahh I jusr read bella and ces's and karen's comments - they are all so nice - what good friends you have
ReplyDeleteSo cute, Ama!!!^^))
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ReplyDeleteI can understand how you feel-but with a different meaning. I Just try to take some time for yourself,even if only for a moment or two.
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Baby island looking different.This theme is attractive.Color combination selection is great.
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Such a beautiful piece of art, Find something to make you smile...it will lift your spirits.
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your art is just so sweet and beautiful...your island is one of flourishing and blossom. I like your work and i really very impressed by that.
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This type of art item is really good looking. The baby island looking different and very unique design you have made. I impressed by that.
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